I have fallen.
God fucking dammit,
I told myself no one deserves me to commit,
But then you went and spent all my bad dreams,
Turning them into the sweetest flavors of ice cream,
And the last time I was in your bed,
And I fought off those demons in my head.
But I will admit,
You lead me,
To a place above and beyond.
You love how well you fit,
Into me, on me, with me, beside me.
Baby boy just know that you are not the only one who is scared to trigger all this joy,
We were both used for sexual toys,
In a time in our lives that will be covered by my sweet honey vibes.
I love climbing,
Your body and mind.
You say I’m beautiful,
Don’t you know how you startle me?
My soul was once an empty hole,
You had been used like a tool, I promise I don’t that shit to you, its so uncool.
Can you teach me how chemicals react?
Because I find myself wanting to be wrapped in you.
You feel me get stronger,
Maybe that’s how this lasted longer-
Than it was “supposed too”.
I never understood so much until I got to know your touch.
Your now my favorite rush,
Because we didn’t rush.
You told me to hush my rapid quick fire demons
And I was the one who decided that I no longer wanted to keep them.
I wonder one day if you’ll be him,
But I feel like I’m in a deep freeze swim, going out on such a fragile god damn limb if I asked you,
“Do you want to be him?”.
I always love being wrapped in your vines-
Because we agreed I’d never go back to running white lines,
Or telling white lies.
I believe this winter isn’t warmer because of global warming,
The heat of a thousand amber suns road into my life with no warning.
You still have me soaring over horizons.
Somebody’s son, look at all you have won.